Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Hi Momma

When my Mom had a seizure a couple of years ago, she had been hallucinating. She said she could see people. She didn't know them but she was afraid. I tried to tell her to just ask what they wanted. She then went to the hospital because we knew something was wrong with her and shortly after arriving, she had a seizure. They said it was due to a UTI. Afterwards she never mentioned seeing anyone.

My sister, about 3 weeks after Momma died, said she was tossing and turning in bed when she saw a shadow and heard Momma tell her in Spanish to settle down. She said she did but couldn't sleep.

Then I woke up the other day at 6am. What woke me is Momma saying my name. I wasn't dreaming that I know of. I heard her clearly say "Daniela" and I awoke saying "What?" I looked over at hubby and Joanna but, they were both asleep. I didn't feel sad or anything, just wide awake which, anyone that knows me, knows I am hard to get going in the morning.

Then Sabrina tells us she saw a shadow. She took a picture with her cell. My sister posted it on the family website along with a picture of my mom for comparison. My mom always tilted to the right when she sat in her wheelchair.

Sabrina was afraid but I told her Momma was just visiting. She's going through some things that I'm sure Momma has a few words to say about. I hope she gets the message.

Here is the picture along with Momma.

I believe in ghosts. Hi Momma.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Win for a nice friend.

Sammy is a former workmate of hubby's. He transferred to a location closer to his home. Well, he has been such a good friend to hubby. He helped us tremendously when my Mom died and again with the house situation. Yes, financially but, he had no reason to help other than hubby is his friend.

Well, I entered this giveaway at with him in mind. He loves to play the guitar. Well, I won and its autographed. I really hope he likes it. A small, small thank you for his help.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Ha! It worked!

I twittered that it was a new week and I was going to try a new attitude. Minutes later, I get an email that we have the clear to close and will be signing, this Thursday, the paperwork for our new home.

Maybe there is something to be said for this positive thinking. Something new to keep trying out. :-P

Saturday, April 18, 2009

What a hug can do.

My mom was not a hugger until she had her first grandchild. Those grandchildren got so much affection from her. I didn't even think to be jealous because I knew she loved us. She just didn't hug us. Later the grandchildren became non huggers. And I've always been uncomfortable at it.

Well, lately Joanna has been having some meltdowns. The other day she was in hysterics because she didn't want to go to school. As usual, I went about it the wrong way and got angry with her. She was hysterical! She had her head back and was wobbling about to drop herself. I finally took her in my arms and hugged her. She IMMEDIATELY calmed down. I was amazed. A hug.

Today for the first time I let her go outside with the other girls without us out there too. A little girl came asking if she could play. It was hard but we said Ok. Of course I opened the blinds!! :)

She came running in crying like crazy. Apparently a little girl elbowed her in the mouth by accident but Joanna was hurting. After getting the story out of her between gasps, I hugged her. She calmed down. It felt so beautiful that a hug from me could do that. It made me teary. I love her so much and I try to break out of what I am used to. I thank God everyday for her. And if I could, I'd hug him.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Please help a friend win a Cube!

Easy to register and vote. Lori is so creative and out of more than 7,000 entries, she got picked as one of 500 finalists.

Please vote for her entry.

She could be one of the first 50 people in Canada to own a Nissan Cube!

Monday, April 13, 2009

When we move.

We haven't gotten the clear to close yet. So frustrating.

But I will be sad once we move. This apartment will forever be thought of as where my Mom last lived. I will hate to see anyone else live here. And heaven forbid they ever raze these apts! It will be like her dying again.

I know we have our memories and stories for her to live on but, I am a visual person. I have to see the place or person.

My heart jumps when I get mail addressed to her. I see commercials for things that make me say out loud "Ohh, I gotta tell Momma!"

Or like yesterday at my cousin's. An Uncle of hers made menudo Momma would have loved! It was all I could think of.

Today I got a call confirming an appointment from her neurologist. I have to tell someone again, she died. And it hurts all over again.

I miss her so much. So damn much.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Happy 6th Birthday to my Joanna!

A little late....

Since we are days from closing on our house, we decided to do a combo party for hubby, Joanna and home afterwards.

So Sunday was Joanna's day and first we went to buy her Easter dress. She's still a frou frou girl and it was pink with a slouch sweater. Wide white headband and white patent leather shoes. OMG, she's cute. So, we had her birthday pictures made. Then she was asked where did she want to eat breakfast. She said the place with the blue sign with a p where we took Nana and Victoria. IHOP, aha.....

After breakfast we took her to Target to buy something with birthday money she received. She picked a bathroom set complete with toilet for her Barbies. Sigh.

Then we went to the movies but she didn't care for Marley & Me and we left halfway through.

Home to take a least us old folks took a nap. And OMG, she actually asked to go to the mall. WTF?

So, we did and bought cookies at The Great American Cookie Co. Walked around, went into a furniture store sitting on couches....

Then home for her to play with her Barbies.

It was a nice day.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Happy Birthday Old Man!

It's hubby's birthday. 41 years young. He had tears in his eyes at midnight. He haaaaaaaaaaaates getting old. I told him that at least he is still alive. Shut his self pity party right up.


Kindergarten Zoo

Joanna had a school program yesterday. She's so dang shy it was great to see her participate.