Tuesday, February 19, 2008

What else am I suppose to do??

We were over at my SIL's house on Sunday. It was nice, MIL was there as well as SIL's two grown daughters.

Then.....one of them said "Does Joanna still get a knot in the back of her hair like her mama's?"

I smiled and said, "I never got knots in the back of my hair.......but her biological mother does."

But I was dying inside......seems that no matter how long or what's done.........to his family, Miriam is the mama. I'm just his wife....who's taking care of Joanna.

Joanna will know she's adopted........in our own time. But this is not the first time they mention Miriam as her "mama".....

I wish they could at least respect my feelings. Its bad enough that I fear for the day Joanna yells at me that I'm not her real mom.....and i've heard stories that it will eventually happen in the heat of a moment.

I guess all I can do is continue to love my baby.........she is my baby....I felt it the second I saw her 4 1/2 yrs ago.

I just wish I didn't care what his family thought.


Anonymous said...

My heart cries for you Daniela, There are so many thoughtless people in this world. You may not be Joannas birth mother but you are her Mama.
No doubt there will be bumps in the road ahead but there will be joy as well.

Daniela6968 said...

Aww, Monk. I may just be too sensitive. There's tons of joy with Joanna already. :)

Anonymous said...

My sister and brother in law adopted their son in Kazakhstan,They got him when he was two and he is six now. Be careful Joanna finds out the situation from you not from a thoughtless inlaw. Hang in there.