Joanna's biomother (SIL) left a very lasting memory that was recreated by Joanna yesterday. It hurt too.
We were in Mexico and at a party. MIL and SIL did not really get along even though MIL did everything for her. I remember the shock when MIL asked for a drink from SIL's coke. SIL did the most ugliest face and thrust it at her. It might be a little thing but it really threw me.
Well, Joanna did it to me yesterday. I had a glass of tea and she always wants what I have. She asked me what was it, I answered tea and she asked for a drink. So she took a sip. So I asked for a sip of her Mountain Dew. She made a face and gave me her cup. I took a sip. She then told me she didn't want it anymore. I asked her why? She said because I drank out of it. My mind zoomed to that day in Mexico. I was so hurt. I got angry with her (wrong, I know) and told her to go to her room. I went in after her and asked her why? She's only 4, she can't explain it but I was confused. I told her it was not a nice thing and it made me feel bad. She then asked if she gave me some of her drink, would she be a good girl. I told her that she didn't have to give me anything but if she didn't want to share why is she asking for a drink of mine?
Such a little thing. I should let it roll off my back but I guess my self confidence took a hit thinking she didn't like me. Is it like this for other adoptive mothers? Always thinking we have to do better in order to be liked? That no matter how much you love and give, it might not be enough?
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