Happy Birthday Momma!

Its my momma's 63rd B-day!

Saturday, my sis gave her a party. She hired my mom's favorite music, mariachis!

Happy Birthday Momma, We love you!!

Elmer's Squeeze 'n Brush

I won a set of these brushes from a blog. Joanna was so happy. They're pretty cool. Here is what she painted asap.

Happy Birthday Joanna

Wow, I hate posting late but, weare just getting back to normal.

Saturday was my baby's 5th birthday. Since her daddy turned 40 on Friday, we decided to do a double party. We had a nice turnout. Thank you Beli, for taking over the grill. It freed up Gabino to be with his family.

Happy Birthday Gabino

The big 4-0!! I hope your birthday party Saturday rocks! Love you!

RIP Midget

I called my Tia Julia tonight. She was sniffling. She said Big Mike called her to tell her that Midget died. My sister ran over him by accident. :(

Midget was about 10yrs old or so. He was an indoor cat but when my brother went to live with my sis, he escaped. He came alive again once he got a taste of the outdoors. He used to be always sleepy, bad back, ear mites.......then he was reborn. I think he was happier these last 6 months.

I know my sister feels so bad about what happened, who wouldn't? But its not her fault. He was on the outside porch and for some reason ran under her truck after she started it up.

He will be missed, big time.

A nice Sunday!

Finally, we feel better! Sunday, we took Joanna to the park nearby. It was a little humid but there was a nice breeze. Here's a couple of pics. :)

Happy Belated Easter

Ughhhh.......we are sick. Joanna's had a cough since last Thursday as well as I. Then Saturday we went out to eat with some friends when I felt my eye sting. It got pretty bad and in the morning, it was glue! So Sunday, Joanna gets her own Pink Eye. Took her to the clinic today. Gave me 5 different meds for her. It was heck giving them to her....she's tired of medicine.

She'll be out of school til Thursday.

We were too miserable to have an Easter for her yesterday, so we went to Target today to get her a few goodies.

So, happy Belated Easter to everyone....

Blog winner and a shout out.

I won an organizer from this blog, http://www.iknowamomblog.com/ . I really enjoyed reading her blog and its in my favorites.

The organizer is from this site, http://www.trulymom.com/ . I loooooooooove this site. I wish I had the moola for other things. I love their stationary. I have an online friend who now and then will mail me a letter...a letter! So, once I get the funds, I want to buy some special stationary to mail to her.

This is the organizer I won, http://www.trulymom.com/shop/product_info.php?cPath=34&products_id=271 . Wow, I will be almost afraid to write in this beautiful organizer. I hope it gives me the kick in the pants I need to start getting organized. Anyone who's seen my desk, knows I need it!

So big thanks to Whitney at http://www.iknowamom.com and Kim, Maria, Michelle and Kristen at http://www.trulymom.com !

Random happiness.....

My cat: Julissa:

The orchids I received for doing taxes:

To ER or not to ER

I finally broke down and agreed to go to the ER for my leg pain. Now I have a pain that, if it were on the right side, I would think it would be my appendix........but its on my left. And my leg pain is slowly spreading itself to my left buttock.

We get there and omg, what in the heck is a major city county hospital thinking??? 12 chairs in the ER. 3 pre-assessment rooms. A computer where you log in your complaints.

We stood next to a lady who had been there 3 hrs and hadn't even had her blood pressure checked. A woman who was soooo obviously in pain asked how much longer. She had chest pains and tingling in her hands and feet. The triage nurse (no fault of hers) told her she didn't know but soon. The lady said forget it and was leaving. Her eyes haunting me...so much pain...

The nurse was scribbling her name off the list and don't know what hit her but, she ran after the woman and got her to sit down.

I told Gabino...too many people worse off than me. All I wanted was to go home and lay down. This pain is ugh...but standing there for hours wasn't going to do diddly. And Joanna was upset when I left. So home I am. Took a goody and put my knee on a heating pad.

Another day....

Snow, I think.

This was 2 nights ago. It was gone in a hour. :) I don't envy those with the snowstorms but I wish we had enough to build a snowman. Whine whine.

Update on my mom.

Turns it out it was a small heart attack. :( She's out of the hospital. Seems and looks good.

The upside of today is Michael was hired by Braum's. Ice cream for everyone!

Explaining

I tried to explain to Joanna about adoption to see how much she understood. All she knows is that she has two mothers. I was too choked up to go further. Slowly but surely. Step by step. My heart breaks.

If it were up to me, she'd never know. I want to be the only one. Selfish? Normal? Who the heck knows?

My in-laws are ugh. I have to beat them to it. And I'm angry about that.

I'm so angry and tired and sad and selfish............

Reminder

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Check out her scratchboards too, they're awesome!

Other news

My nephew is here again. But this time, Gabino is dealing with him. No more "Hey, tell him to wash the dishes, take the trash, why is he still up, no more computer..." YOU TELL HIM. I'm not in it this time!

To be truthful, I don't want him here. Just another headache. I'm watching my mom, taking care of my niece's daughter, Joanna and the child-man I married. Plus my leg hurts so much, I'm in a bitchy mood all day. And now my nephew????

Gabino spoke to him, gave him a bunch of rules.....any one of them broken, he is out. Of course he nodded yes to every one of them. What else is he going to do?

I wish my nephew would grow some and work towards being independant. He supposedly wants to go back to school. Hmph. Gabino told him, once he's 18 in December and he's still here...he's paying rent. Whether it be $1 or $100....it won't be such a free ride anymore.

I know he can be a good kid but he's so much like his mom, he gets on my nerves. They want to be helpful but they want whatever done their way. Ugh.

Last night my sister asked him to watch Julissa because I'll be going to see my mom soon. I had no idea he told her he wanted to get paid. This morning when my other sister (his mom) dropped the baby off, she gave him $20.........I asked him what that was and that's when he said he was being paid for babysitting. He then gave me the money and said it was for food...we were out of milk.

Oh yeah, everything's hunky dory at first. I'm just waiting for the bomb to go off.

Someone's going to explode.

Mom in ER

She's doing ok.

Yesterday she had an appt in Plano and being the chicken I am driving in ice, I asked my sis to take her.

She no sooner arrived when they came right back. She fell ill with an embarrassing malady....she needed to change clothes, if you get my drift.

Afterwards, she laid down in bed. She started having the shivers, then would get hot.

Finally she complained that she couldn't breathe. So because it was almost the same symptoms of her heart attack last July, I suggested the ER. The paramedics came, checked her out and mentioned that one lung sounded wet.

ER said the same...she had fluid in her lungs. So they kept her....and they are doing dialysis right now. They haven't given her a room,, they full.

So, that's our scare for the week. :(

Computer's got hit with the bug, too.

From what I am reading on tech forums, its a corrupt registry thing. At the welcome screen, the user icon is missing. I can't log on. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh

I will have to reformat. Thank goodness I have a separate hard drive for my music and photos. And thank goodness for this laptop!

Another thing....I do taxes for my relatives online. I use Turbotax.com Its free for them and I like doing them.

well, as usual, they've got their friends coming to me........my SIL's neighbor was the latest one. But, I called today to make sure they got their direct deposit. He was so happy, he said he had something for me. My SIL brought it over......an orchid plant and $50. Whoo hoo! I always say I do them for free but its nice to be appreciated!

I'll have to take a pic of the orchid. I've never had anything so fancy! :)

Sick!

Tuesday Joanna had a fever. Once it was up to 105. It was 4am so I went online to see how to break it without covering her totally up. So first link is about egg whites. Soak cloths or paper towels in egg whites and then wrap the feet in them. Either put socks on or ziplocs. So I did. 30min later she was cool and was able to sleep for 3 hrs.

Later that night, again, high fever. So Wednesday, took her to the clinic. They did a stick on her finger and checked for strep. Normal test is 6.8.......she had 21.8. Shot in the butt, antibiotics. 1hr later she was good to go. Today we went for a follow up shot. She cried but was really brave too. Mostly because she knew why we were there and didn't put up a fight. I love my girl!

She missed the whole week of school.....ughhh. And I still didn't get to sleep in!!! LOL

And now, I don't know what I ate but, I'm visiting the throne every 5min. Sigh...at least I'm getting some reading done. Hee hee!

What else am I suppose to do??

We were over at my SIL's house on Sunday. It was nice, MIL was there as well as SIL's two grown daughters.

Then.....one of them said "Does Joanna still get a knot in the back of her hair like her mama's?"

I smiled and said, "I never got knots in the back of my hair.......but her biological mother does."

But I was dying inside......seems that no matter how long or what's done.........to his family, Miriam is the mama. I'm just his wife....who's taking care of Joanna.

Joanna will know she's adopted........in our own time. But this is not the first time they mention Miriam as her "mama".....

I wish they could at least respect my feelings. Its bad enough that I fear for the day Joanna yells at me that I'm not her real mom.....and i've heard stories that it will eventually happen in the heat of a moment.

I guess all I can do is continue to love my baby.........she is my baby....I felt it the second I saw her 4 1/2 yrs ago.

I just wish I didn't care what his family thought.

Happy Valentine's Day